Thursday, October 22, 2009

An Imaginary Table of Contents

Samples of Our Days

Introduction: From Nude in the Bathtub to Enclosed Interiors      1
Musk      16
Blood's Insides and sleep       18
Greasy, bare teacups       27
Porcelain mornings       30
Theories and discontents on knotty breath       36
Nudes       40
Water as drapery and/or x-rays       54
Compartmentalizing fingers, hair, and honey jars       63
Handfuls       75
Bare breath       79
Hmmmm       82
Slippery foot wind       83
Ripping, sewing, ripping       85
Things, people, and their giant teeth       91
Melting skins and adaptation       97
Boxing worlds and repugnant beat-toned faces       108
Clumpy foreheads       112
Analysis words thin, celery, and spine       115
Something at rest       124
Innocent tastes of pomegranates       126
The air's accounts       129
Pasting cartoons on daily objects       139
Bodies as nuts and/or grape clusters       144
Consequences of inhaling too little color       155
Boiling for tea and time       163
Shattering hot and/or cold things, both imaginary and real       167
Late night races       171
Conclusion: weight in grams of novelty, relaxation, sugars, and irritation      174

Sunday, October 18, 2009


I want a pair of loud and sour shoulder blades

because I've been dressed in
quivering bones for long,
and people and light are exhaling
their crawling, ivy breath into my fingers.

I want to         claw the air so that it smells of ripe nails.

I want a pair of loud and sour shoulder blades
because in England I sucked on black,
my breath warm but cracked with openings.

I want to step on my seaweed blood,
and for you to, too. It would be
so nice
to have a thumping laugh
that stuffs our chests and taps at our feet.

That pair of caper eyes made me know
I want a pair of loud and sour blades.

I want to be spread so that I am
all thin inside and feel around me
so thick, padded on the edges of my body
like laying in a bed of pear-flushed grass.

I want a pair of loud and sour shoulder blades
because in Portugal my breaths sank
in handfuls down invisible throats.

I want to unzip the soil under and in me,
beneath this sliver of lettuce sky
and move like the moon as it curves into itself.

I want a pair of loud and sour shoulder blades
because in Brazil I tossed my bundled breaths
and chased after them.

Mixed, mossy insides marinating over years,
           I want a pair of loud and sour shoulder blades.
Inside you can find my sifted voices, so I need
           I want a pair of loud and sour shoulder blades

because there are shadows clotting my eyes,
turning them to sleeping sage.

because I want to           fall


my breaths.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Reclining Figure II, Frank Auerbach


I fear my flesh because
thick words
pulsate in me, out of me,
choke the air with their self-important limbs
and breed thin peaches for voices.

I starve my body,
leave it soaking in its skin,

skin that wraps,
not reaching in
between- where roots soften and wither
into drizzling yellows-

skin that puts streams to sleep,
so that colors and joints shut silent.
skin that does not stretch past our stitched vision,
that never breaks from the bone.

It crumbles, capturing shadows into its pores.

But, when I
inhale down the roasted brown of my eyes
and hum with my sleeping thighs,
our breaths reassure me,
as they wrap me in their tender meat
and spill at my dense corners,
that I
am not carved.

Monday, September 21, 2009

“Purple in the grays, vermilion in the orange shadows, on a cold, fine day.”
– Pierre Bonnard.

I admire Pierre Bonnard’s Breakfast for being at once visually intense and soothingly intimate. Its visual intensity arises from the various vibrant colors employed across the canvas. Although there are distinct planes of color, they are not rigidly divided; they rather appear to almost blend. This is in part due to the distinct brushstrokes that make the colors appear to vibrate. This sense of uniform movement gives the subtle illusion that the colors are moving into each other. Also, the brushstrokes make the painting appear to be stitched in colors, like a tapestry.
Bonnard’s use of repetition of color also prevents any rigid, visual boundaries. The background has an orange section, a blue one, and a violet one. The foreground, likewise, has an orange jar, a blue cup, and a large violet blouse. This close connection in color compresses the space, making it even more intimate and preventing any clear delineation between background and foreground, thus lending the painting an ambiguous quality. For example, the tip of the young woman’s hair lightens into a light brown, almost orange shade so that it blends with the back wall. Likewise, the woman’s violet blouse has black vertical lines that diagonally lead to the black vertical lines on the violet wall. Thus, though the colors are strikingly vibrant, they gently glide across the canvas. The painting is also dabbed with darker shades, particularly the woman’s face, which is hardly exposed. This obscurity creates privacy; her hand gestures are small, delicately and tightly placed around the teapot. The woman’s absorbed nature transforms this daily, banal moment of the day into something valuable. Indeed, she is so intent on her actions that the painter and the spectator are ignored. Instead, we are the ones who are drawn into her space.

Monday, September 7, 2009

I am sitting in my new dorm now, back in New York, putting life together again and gathering my things into a cozy room with pink doors. I am still in the summery/happy/dreamy ways, but have started to get back on the "paths" of non-summer life. I intend to maintain my summery ways, though, so that the year isn't just a bunch of paths or predictable routines.

Monday, August 31, 2009

drifting thoughts on a cool august day

I feel something like this caterpillar today- snug and quiet, I embrace my thoughts and sounds of the day.

Friday, August 28, 2009

a poem from the springtime


Our slipping eyes wet the light,
padding our steps and smearing orange.
our voices, shoots of froth
boiling at their roots in the flushed ground.

Smells of a burning dawn crackle
and trail in our thinning stream of pattering toes.

I like emptying our spaces,
even if they thicken as I spill into them.

I swallow our rolls of silence
and feel them clamber inside me from bone
to bone.
but my words keep crawling
and tangle in my hair,
knot in the blotches of rosy air that stain my scalp.

I cannot unlace myself as you all do.
I am still a dusky, hollow form,
still carved from our orange, empty spaces.

Thursday, August 27, 2009